The One After the Previous Random One (Not necessarily less random though)

Have you ever felt that annoying feeling when you know that there is something absolutely necessary and important that you just have to do... but just cannot for the life of you remember what it is ?? If you have then you know what I'm talking about. That's the exact same feeling I've been experiencing for the past three to four days. The only problem is that I know exactly what all i have to do... :(

There's the term paper i have to write by next week on a topic that I have no idea about. Come on, Molecular Modelling in Slag Design !! What do you think I am ?? Anywho, then there's the two lab reports and the extreeemely important class test on a subject that I am in danger of not passing because i have no clue what the guy teaches in class... Why can't they dumb it down for us a little ?? So thats a lot of work.. and here I am not doing anything about it. You know, its like a evil circle that you can't get out of. I feel so bad and gutted about the fact that I've done nothing yet that I go ahead and sulk for some more time and hence end up doing... guess what ..NOTHING !!! And now that I've rambled on for some time, I realize I have no idea what I want to write anyway...

Anyways, I've always wondered what possesses people to keep blogs ?? If you need to write and express yourself through it, then why not keep a diary ? If you just want to tell people your views on certain stuff, why not tell the guy next to you or a friend or someone.. why write it online?? Why do I keep posting sh!te sporadically ?? Theres this friend of mine who started to blog after I did but is now head and shouldrs above me in terms of frequency of posting and general advertising his blog... which I give him credit for but still makes me feel almost compelled to post something or the other. Guys help me out on this one.. why blog at all ??

By the way... today our mess was closed so we had to have dinner outside. Now why do I bring this up, you may ask... well a friend and I went to have dinner at a small restaurant called MidTown.  When we returned with our wallets considerably empty, we came across two guys.. one of whom had dinner at our hostel's canteen and another who had dinner in MS canteen... and guess how much it cost them ?? Rs 60 something in our canteen and Rs 100 something in MS !!!! My friend and I had BETTER food at a BETTER place and it cost us only Rs 55 per head !!! HAHA.. Dan, prusty, and others who had food there... IN YOUR FACE !!! IN YOUR FACE !!!

Totally random thoughts... or maybe not

Well, its been 4 months since i last posted anything so this one is probably more out of guilt than anything else. You know, a lot can happen in 4 months... A lot...

Anyway i was wondering what pain actually is... is it the knee you bruised or the hand you broke or is it something totally different ?? I've broken various bones in my body and even had to have an operation once just to set the bones correctly... and I can vividly recall the numbing pain that I experienced when the doctor removed the clamp from my bones without even giving anaesthesia (I've still not forgiven him, x( ... ). But no pain.. no physical pain, in my opinion, can compare to the wierd heavy feeling that persists inside of you when you feel, let's just say, betrayed by someone you trust. 

You know, its funny how a single incident or event can totally change a person and his/her behaviour. How a person can change almost overnight from being friendly and open to all to being cautious about who he considers to be a friend and whom he does not. Supposedly a friend will stand by you through thick and thin... through all the rough stuff, when you need support... 

And when that person fails to be there, thats when you feel betrayed. But then Time, the great healer, is the best medicine and slowly you forget and possibly forgive... actually you dont forget or forgive... you remember... :) and you feel angry...not at that person but at yourself for presuming too much... for letting that person close... for depending on that person... 

Thats when you start to evaluate... who is a good friend ? who is a TRUE friend ?  who is the person you can depend on to be there for you ? And suddenly you realize that you can't be sure of anyone or anything anymore... You re-evaluate your attitude and become more wary of people that you let in to your inner circle...

Maybe, in hindsight, such a setback (if i may call it that) is sometimes required... that sometimes you need to put a blade in fire to make it stronger... but hey whatever... 

I need to see the next episode of scrubs... two and a half men is the best comedy series thats going on now... blah blah blah... I don't really know what to write anymore... blah blah blah more pseudo intellectual crap....