Totally random thoughts... or maybe not

Well, its been 4 months since i last posted anything so this one is probably more out of guilt than anything else. You know, a lot can happen in 4 months... A lot...

Anyway i was wondering what pain actually is... is it the knee you bruised or the hand you broke or is it something totally different ?? I've broken various bones in my body and even had to have an operation once just to set the bones correctly... and I can vividly recall the numbing pain that I experienced when the doctor removed the clamp from my bones without even giving anaesthesia (I've still not forgiven him, x( ... ). But no pain.. no physical pain, in my opinion, can compare to the wierd heavy feeling that persists inside of you when you feel, let's just say, betrayed by someone you trust. 

You know, its funny how a single incident or event can totally change a person and his/her behaviour. How a person can change almost overnight from being friendly and open to all to being cautious about who he considers to be a friend and whom he does not. Supposedly a friend will stand by you through thick and thin... through all the rough stuff, when you need support... 

And when that person fails to be there, thats when you feel betrayed. But then Time, the great healer, is the best medicine and slowly you forget and possibly forgive... actually you dont forget or forgive... you remember... :) and you feel angry...not at that person but at yourself for presuming too much... for letting that person close... for depending on that person... 

Thats when you start to evaluate... who is a good friend ? who is a TRUE friend ?  who is the person you can depend on to be there for you ? And suddenly you realize that you can't be sure of anyone or anything anymore... You re-evaluate your attitude and become more wary of people that you let in to your inner circle...

Maybe, in hindsight, such a setback (if i may call it that) is sometimes required... that sometimes you need to put a blade in fire to make it stronger... but hey whatever... 

I need to see the next episode of scrubs... two and a half men is the best comedy series thats going on now... blah blah blah... I don't really know what to write anymore... blah blah blah more pseudo intellectual crap....